Mr.Weirdman

Im a machine like regimental procedure.Its like on every piece of paper the only shape im allowed to draw are boxes maybe i have to draw with the same exact size and position. Every process is being repeated the same way like putting an eye to a doll in a factory.

Im dying. but i know, if she is staying strong for me, why cant i be stronger for her. It is really hard to let the thought of going through the 5 days without having her here with me, but lets just depend on the weekends.

to MAI (if your reading this) please please be strong for naufal. Please stay by your phone when the night fall cause he have a very limited time to me the phone call. tell him you miss him, tell him your crying. But also tell that you are going to be there for him no matter. In this regimental process that he have to go through, he is emotionally weaker than you. Im writing this with the image of seeing him the other day with lost of words and excitement and the person he is back then. I almost saw tears and it hurts to see him that way.

Another 2 months of this. then hopefully something better will come our(your soldiers) way.